Esa Puta

Cuanto tiempo a gastado con esta vieja. Me hace enojar tanto por que horita, aunque que estoy escribiendo en espanol, me precupo que vay a lear lo que escribo y ya me a enfadado al fin. Como estoy viviendo mi vida precupado de hablar, de mi voz. Para ella, lo encanta, pero para mi, yo a sufrido demasiado. Tanto tiempo gastado con esta descarada. En verdad, no tiene verguenza. Aunque que la quero o que sea mi amante, me quero escapar de las manos de esta sin verguenza. Quesera que se irra a otra parte—yo me pudiera estar haciendo mi tarea sin las problemas de esta puta. ----Me estoy olvivando dicer el cuento de esta nina. Estube en mi propia cama en mi casa con esta nina. Yo estube un poco triste y le dije a la nina lo que estaba sintiendo, pero en vez de apollar mis sentimiento, la puta me pregunta por que estoy triste. Yo, pensando que mi vay a apollar, le digo que no se—seriamiente, me senti triste, pero no era por una razon, pero fue por varias, y no quese hablar con ella sobre todo por que tuve tarea y no le quese dicer. Pues, esta puta se pone caliente cuando le dije que no le iba dicer. Empezo a tirrar cosas, me empujo, me agarro la cara, tirro comida, y mas. Se puso como se iba ir, pero, como siempre, no se fue pero nomos quiso hacer sus trompas y tonterias para contralarme. Pues, no me deje. Esta puta se pone como si fuera encargado de algo, de mi. Ya no me voy a dejar. Ya me a enfadado al fin. La dejo ir? Si ya es tiempo para el fin de esta relacion. Yo no le trato hace. Esta puta piensa que tiene los pantalones en esta pareja. Ensima de eso, piensa que esta lista—que pendaja: ni acabo la high school. Le sacaron de las high school porque estaba muy tonta. Era en este tiempo que ella empezo a cortarse. Se corta los brazos, las piernas, y mas. Una vez la tuve que llevarla al hospital por que la tonta se corto muy ondo—o y no tiene seguranza. Lista verdad—se nota. Puta. Descarada. La puta vivio conmigo sin pagar renta por seis meses, le di dinero porque no tuvo chamba (por seis meses), le compre comida, y la apolle en todo, y quen sabe cuanto mas hice por ella. Si lo tuviera que hacer otra vez, no lo hicera. Me senti mal por ella, pero no estaba pensando en mi vida. Esta no vay a la escuala, case no trabaja, vive con su madre en su sofa, su carro es una mierda que no sirbe, siempre quere estar a mi lado—no se affloja, anda hablando con otros gueys, y mas. Estoy pensando de dejar esta. Lo a pensado por un tiempo, y la a dejado varias vez’s, pero, por una razon o otra, me regresso con ella. Mis padres la odian. Mis padres no estan contentos que estoy con ella, y por esa razon no les a dicho que es (era) mi novia. Mira, yo tengo mucho que me esta haciendo bien en mi vida, entonces por que me meto con una puta que no a hecho nada. Seriamente. No hace nada. Viente-cuatro anos y nada de cuentos de lo que hace, quere hacer, o nada. Nada de metas, la puta. Me enfadado esta. Seriamente, yo puderra estar con una mujer, no nina, bien linda, intellijente, delgada, y mas. Ya me enfade de esta descarada/pedorra.

Forgoten

The flame has burned for generations
from one wick
to another
reason is sustenance
on hearths a flame is conferred

it is nurtured in classrooms
emanating beams on
On Pallas's breast as a beacon
sage to the capricious
on hearths a flame is conferred

Progressively illuminated halls
as starlit ebony waxes
anathematized as Coyolxauhqui
pious conviction justifies
on hearths a flame is conferred

Large Hadron Collider

I'm thinking of traveling back in time to the 80's, and with the new Large Hadron Collidor (LHC) going online today, i see my dreams materializing--I'm hoping for more glam rock than cocaine, but if God bestows this curse i will not appeal my supplication. But, than again, a large black hole could spawn consuming the earth leaving nothing behind but remnants of a society that fueled Rodney Dangerfield; but, again, I'm shooting for the 80's, so this Rodney Dangerfield could be a good wing man. If, somehow, a black hole is created by the ions of lead shot over a 27 kilometer distance, would it not simply consume France and Switzerland? Hopefully more of France then of Switzerland, Swiss chocolate is incredible, and i can't imagine living my life without aspiring to own a swiss watch. Yet the success of the LHC could prove to disprove the logic of time; i mean we could have this entire dimension or social construct of time wrong, could we not? Maybe, Edgar Allen Poe was right in his The Devil in the Belfry, maybe society should abolish these abominations that allow capitalism to flourish and consume, or consume and flourish...I digress. Point being, tomorrow a jubilee of small particles will be shot in a circle to smash into each other for the purpose of science; to test the lives of theorists and physicists; the explanations, rationalizations, and imaginations of brilliant men and women will be tested. I'm hoping we discover the moon is really made of cheese, but i prefer to not be blatantly optimistic.

Humble Beginings

This is my first blog. I'm not sure what will arise from these blogs in the subsequent months, but i do know that i will be writing them frequently and without any direction in mind, so if i don't really have a goal in mind, it really doesn't matter what direction i take. So let's go on a journey nowhere, and enjoy the ride because its not the location i am seeking but the means by which i plan to get there.

Proposition Eight

I find it ironic piety has become the foundation for the yes on prop. 8 movement. The precepts and principles religion subscribes to are based on compassion, peace, and love; yet, these principles are frequently and consistantly replaced with self righteious propaganda. Unfortunately, apathy and indifference is transformed into fear and illogical behavior. Indeed, one can look at the genius of the rhetoric behind these campaigns and find the pathos appeal in the epicenter. Fear causes irrational thinking and impulsive action. Despite the logical and just appeals selfish and survival instincts take over all rational.
One does not have to support homosexuality to support no on prop. eight. Although our constitution states we are all equal, we can agree this is not an axiom. The desparity found within the past century manifests the opposite. The United States has made leaps and bounds; most recently, with the election of President-elect Barack Obama, but their is work still to be done. If Martin Luther King or Cesar Chavez were still alive today, they would not be short of causes. Proposition is not so much about marriage, as it is about equality. Closing the gap between the american dream, and the american reality is possible. Naysayers, may look to the past and consider it a feat to large for one generation to overcome as the farmworkers did against the farmowners, but collective action is the weapon of the masses. Its not that we are not screaming because we all certainly suffer from a myriad of injustice, but its that it is falling on deaf ears. We are not a quiet submissive group, but we need to band together and make one cause, one voice in solidarity; one issue at a time. Today, it is proposition eight; tomorrow, we work on closing the gap between the american dream and american reality.
I will close with a couple quotes:

"An injustice anywhere, is a threat to justice everywhere." Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

"Be the change you want to see in the world." Mahatma Ghandi

"Anyone who trades security for justice deserves neither." Benjamin Franklin